Friday, February 4, 2011
betrayed
my body betrayed me this week. it started with a rash on my face then an abscess on my chest and a 103 degree fever and the chills. after two rounds of intravenous antibiotics, lots of fluids, and all the jeopardy i ever care to see again i went home diagnosed with a staph infection. day three of my antibiotics and i was feeling worse. despite my protest, my family made me go back. round two at the hospital: my oxygen saturation was low and i have been pretty wheezy (which wasn't a concern for me considering i'm an asthmatic). apparently it should have been a concern. after more blood tests, chest xrays, and more antibiotics i'm informed on top of having a staph infection, i have pneumonia. i'm tired. my body feels like its attacking itself. i'm lonely. i'm discouraged. i'm sick of being sick. honestly, i'm not sure what God is teaching me through this season of infirmity. i trust that he slowed me down and kept me away from my family and friends and out of work and school for the last week for a reason, just not sure why yet. maybe i'm just too drained to really be listening...
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Praying for you as I write this, Dannah. No answers, no reasons, but I can pray.
ReplyDeleteHang in there Dannah! We love you and are thinking and praying for you daily. As soon as you are back to your healthy self again we should definitely have a hang-out sesh. You may feel lonely but you are not alone. And you may feel discouraged but you are an incredible woman. So don't believe those lies!!! Get well soon love!
ReplyDeleteKeeping you in my thoughts Dannah! and praying!
ReplyDeleteO dear, I am so sorry. This sounds horrible and I'm impressed that you know God's trying to teach/use you in some way. I am praying for insight, rest, healing, and rejuvenation.
ReplyDeletepraying for you. and if you need someone to be sick with, I will seriously come over. I am sick ALL the time, but it's just my body attacking itself... you won't catch what I have. :) and I won't get pneumonia. if you need a friend, let me know.
ReplyDeleteTrust in God! You will hear Him! I am praying for you!
ReplyDeleteStill praying for you Dannah! Do you need anything? Let us know if we can help out however...
ReplyDeleteUgh, feeling betrayed by your own body really is the worst. Praying for quick healing and quiet rest for your heart in the midst of it ... Let us know if there's anything we can do.
ReplyDeleteDannah, I am most definitely praying for you! I think that acknowledging that you think that you are too drained to be listening implies that at least you still desire to listen to God. I encourage you to pursue that desire, and know that you have all of us praying for you and supporting you!
ReplyDeleteRest. it's a forced rest but still...Praying for you. If you need anything just say the word.
ReplyDeletefirst of all, i have been praying and i will continue to do so. i grieve with you in this as i UNDERSTAND completely the defeat you feel. hold on to what strength you have and find rest and peace in God's healing and love. in the loneliness, meditate on feeling His presence. i know how exhausting this is... i have been in and out of hospitals for various reasons myself for the last 8 years. but i am telling you, He can heal anything! you may feel delayed in things right now because of this but what delay you might just save you. it sounds ironic that God is potentially saving you when you are in the hospital hooked up to IV's but He is saving you in ways we will not know until we are with Him again. just hold onto trust and faithfulness and surrender your body to Him and know He is fully capable. you remain in my prayers. i can't wait to see you back and healthier than ever! :)
ReplyDeletepraying for you dear, still praying! like Darin said, let us know how we can help you out love.
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